Thursday, April 29, 2010

Surrender

I have decided to be more diligent about updating this and I have decided to change the tone of this blog. I have made it more of a personal blog about my relationship with and passion for Jesus Christ and my journey in pursueing horses.

As far as news is concerned, I am officially registered for classes at Blackhawk this fall! I am so excited and God has just opened so many doors for it to even be happening. I am so pumped. I am getting a new horse, his name is Rock of Uzziah or "Zi." He is a four year old American Warmblood gelding that's 16.hh tall and still growing! I am very excited to pursue dressage naturally with him and his potential is such that there is really no limitation with him. My dressage trainer will be working a lot with him and I, and I plan on really taking him through the Parelli levels and reaching some new and exciting heights in that realm! God is good.

Lately what has really been on my heart is surrendering. I was recently drawn to a verse in 1 John (1 John 2:6) that says "Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did." I went to a friend's college group a few weeks ago and they were talking about several verses in 1 John and the context of this verse and the ultimate question that rose was "what does it look like to truly give everything for God?" If I were to give up everything and follow after Jesus what does that look like? I have really been meditating on that and praying about it because I want to give everything. One of the realizations that I have come to is that when that is my prayer and heart... God answers and asks us to surrender things that are taken away. In my life right now I have reached a heartbreaking decision that I know is what God is calling me to. Parting with Magi is not easy, handing over my passions and desires is hard. But it is beautiful, I feel in such complete surrendrance with God and it hurts yet there is beauty in the breaking. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 is close to my heart right now, in my weaknesses God is strong and is holding me up.


Today was a good day, I got to play with and ride Magi and be a part of a trailering session with Katie and Ari in preperation for summer travels. Very exciting! Zi is coming next month and I am so incredibly excited to work with a young horse again and really begin to utilize so many new techniques and skills I've been learning in Parelli and from my dressage trainer. Vet comes out next week to do shots and I am planning on going out to Kingsway this weekend to hopefully work with some horses and people:)

<3 Kayla